Winning Pretty

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Now tell me of a citizen

Who cannot serve in infantry?

Somehow the celebrations

For our patriotic GLBT

Have left me feeling hollow

Since no matter what they swallow

They can kill and spill overturn

Crash and burn

I haven’t got a word now

For the feeling in between

You know I’m feelin’ so proud

As they march into the skein

We are free, now truly aren’t we?

We are proud and without lies

You can ask and I can tell you

What I enjoy between my thighs

You know we marched into the city

You know we camped out in the trees

But winning isn’t always pretty

They will cut you at your knees

And I can slaughter

I can translate

I can save you from the enemy

I can come home

Broken body

Disillusioned fighting PTSD

We are heightened

When we are equal

We are lowered

When we fight

Guess that’s why I’m feeling lonely

While I’m bursting with gay pride

How to harmonize

These feelings

I am in between the baffles

Alone, and keening

For the beautiful

The spacious skies

This bumpy road

to equal rights

Time to Fall Apart

Time to Fall Apart...

http://bloginsong.com/2010/09/03/time-to-fall-apart/

copyright 2010 by Camille Bright-Smith and Travis Dickerson

the way you wear your work boots

the way you hold your grey guitar
the way you move your tired body
old enough to be my father
but i'm not thinkin' along those lines
I 'm thinking way outside the box
I'm tired of carrying this burden
I need a man that holds my spark
the way you sit and hold your bottle
the way you sing it all comes through
ain't puttin on ain't pretending
you've been around and you got through
and I could curl up on your long legs
and I could sleep there on your lap
and I could let you hold it all above my head
and I could let you have it all....
and we could sing some songs together
and we could break each others hearts
we better leave these ugly barstools
I think its time to fall apart

Supreme (?) Court

Been busting my ass writing a song for the one year anniversary of the Lilly Ledbetter act and another about the cab ride I recently shared with Reverend Billy and another about rape in the Congo when BAM!  The Oh So Supreme Court rules that any company can pay anyone any amount on a campaign.  It’s a free speech issue, right?  Well, right.  I suppose it is.  But what about MY RIGHT TO FREE FRIKKIN’ SPEECH?  These corporations will essentially silence my voice because the truth is money is power.  Money gets the microphone.  My little blogs and letters and phone calls cannot compete with GE.

 

So, just to vent a little more I need another song.  And I need lots of famous advertising slogans for my song.  Like “just do it”  “can you hear me now?”  “cause I’m worth it” etc…

 

Got any ideas for me?  Shout ‘em out.  I am all ears.  I, at least, will be able to hear you.

 

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Shoveling in Helmut Lang

Its so weird around here.  But so much the same as everywhere else.  Houses on our street have gone into foreclosure.  People have been laid off.  I was, my partner was our neighbors were.  Still on the rare occassion when we go out, the restaurants are full of giddy people drinking all kinds of wine and ordering the filet.   ??

I was shoveling the sidewalk and driveway for the past hour in my gorgeous military-esque super warm Helmut Lang jacket I got in better times - in Malibu of all places.  The place you would least need a very warm winter jacket.  Its 7 degrees outside IN THE SUN!  And I don't have a job, and I am wearing Target panties, Target, leggings, a used skirt and shirt and a stolen (from my Mom's closet) sweater.  Along with the ridiculous jacket that was like $2,000 or something.  By the way, I didn't actually PAY for the jacket....it was a gift.  But still.  Isn't it absurd?

I don't think any homeless people have died yet in this cold snap - but is is desperate out there and I have less to give than ever and so much more desire to give since I may have to leave my home soon and find a tiny apartment which I can afford for the next year on unemployment....And I am one of the VERY VERY lucky.   I get a good unemployment check that I could actually scrape by on.  I won't be homeless, my kids will get a nice warm bowl of soup every night, and we will be priveledged to do so.

I guess I just had to share a little bit about my emotional state while shoveling.  The snow is so light and shimmery - and finally a bit of sun came through at about 3:30 - low and from the southwest....everything is snowy and just slightly pink.  I am going to keep my outlook shaded a little rosy this way, since times seem hard and change is scary.   But times aren't as hard for me as they could be.  Things are rosy. 

Venom For You

 

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I've gotten fed up by the let down.  I've been disappointed over and over again.  I thought things were gonna change!!!!

 

Ok, so I wrote a pissed of song called Venom for You and the Venom is for the Democratic Party.  I applaud the fact that the Health Care Bill has gotten farther along than any in the past, but I don't know why the Republicans are still allowed to frame and control the debate.  This issue is a winner all around and must be handled with decisiveness and strength.  Instead we are being manipulated and preached at.  How DARE the Dems trade in medically necessary abortions and well woman visits.  I have VENOM.  

Even if you don't agree this sun is a scary fun pissed of rant.  So, enjoy:

 

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